Love

Laying in the bed by myself sucks. Married for almost five years and this is only the second time I've gone to sleep without my Love. It's difficult...I'm not gonna lie. I did my fair share of laying by myself before I was married. I'll admit though that at this point in time it may be healthy. Lindsey is at a women's retreat with her good friend, Jenna. Marriage is something that I don't pretend to understand. I think that a lot of people don't understand marriage, thus the astronomical divorce rate. Marriage is about love. I think sacrifice comes in a close second however. Yes, I love my wife...with all my heart. Sacrifice is what we're still getting used to. At least I am. My life has completely changed in the past five years.

Who was I five years ago? Well, I was still Lorenzo. College going, beer drinking, karaoke singing. Seeking... I was seeking God. I was seeking love. We're all seeking love. I think humans need love to survive more than we need oxygen and water. Not just anyone can provide that love. I need to be loved and I need to love. I love Luke. He's my boy. And I didn't pick who he is. He came like he is. And I love him. My love for Luke and the love that Lindsey and I have, I think, are a metaphor for the love of God.

"Luke, don't put that in your mouth, that'll hurt you." There are plenty of things that Luke wants to do that I won't let him do because I know what's best for him. Yet Luke gets angry. He'll throw a fit. I don't care, I'm his dad and I know best.

So here I am. Laying by myself. Luke's in a crib next to me. Life is about this. Life is about love. Life's about trying to keep the love in our lives. Just like our lungs strain for oxygen, our hearts long for that love. Love of God. Love of our spouse. Love of our children.

Just In Thought

It's funny. I had a lit of things on my mind just now and the second I open my blog app I forget everything. I think this happens to me often.

So life. What a crazy thing. So much is happening. I was thinking about the universe the other day. Maybe it's because of all the Star Trek: the Next Generation I've been watching with Lindsey. I was thinking about how huge Earth is in comparison to me. I could stand to lose some weight, but still I'm so incredibly small. The Earth, huge to me, is so small in comparison to our expanding universe. How are we safe? There are dangers being hurled all over the place. The Sun is dangerous. Meteors. Can we predict our safety? Is the universe predictable or unpredictable? My mind is stretched. I'm a man of faith, so I have faith that God has everything in control. But sometimes I wonder.

And I'm so small and my son is even smaller than I, but Luke is so huge to me. He's such a little guy but he's the Universe to Lindsey and I.

I'm just pondering things. Thinking about all of these things take me away. I stress out about things. Thinks like bills. Things like my job. Jesus said not to worry about these petty things. He said that he cares about he flowers and the birds and that they don't worry, yet look how beautiful and carefree they are (I'm paraphrasing). Man. Thinking about how God put this ever expanding universe in motion and he cares for me pretty much blows my mind.
This morning I met with some guys from our church. We read some Proverbs. It was real nice to hang out with them. We also spoke about David and Solomon. Heroes of the Bible yet full of flaws. Dang! We talked about how David lusted after Bathsheba then killed her husband just so he could get a piece of her. And he's a Bible hero. Solomon too. Conqubines and wives. God's love. God is love. I'm just in thought today...

Lost and Found

I can't believe it. I thought I lost me wedding ring! Key word "thought". The other day I went for a run and when I came back I took a shower. After I showered I noticed I didn't have my wedding ring on. WTF?! I thought maybe I could have lost it while pulling weeds. After my run I decided to pull some weeds. But after searching my front yard thoroughly I still couldn't find it. I had no idea where I lost it. For three days I had no wedding ring...well...sort of. I put a keyring on my finger that served a the symbol of my commitment and love to Lindsey.

Today Lindsey and I were cleaning and she found my ring! It was on a jewelry rack she has. I vaguely remember placing it there. The important thing is that I found it. It was lost and that really sucked! But I found it and that is awesome!

Same 'Ol

It's really cloudy outside. I love it! There has been thunder booming all afternoon. I hope this weather keeps up.

Other than the weather, there have been things on my mind. I lost my wedding ring. That sucked. I lost it when I went for a run. It's good that I'm running, but it sucks that I lost my dang ring! I'm hoping to find it soon. I think it may have fallen off while I was pulling weeds.

My thoughts are scattered right now.

My ring. Running. iPhone 5. Rain. Mae.

So I said iPhone 5. I'm considering an iPhone again. Whatevs.

Mae. I'm listening to a Mae recording I've not heard before. It's called (e)vening. So far it's okay. My favorite will always be The Everglow.

Well, I think I'll leave this scattered post where it is. I'll post some photos and stuff and hopefully next time I'll be more organized with my thoughts.

MxPx Rules!!!!!

I'm sitting on our back patio listening to the best band in the universe +MxPx. I love them so much. I really don't think anyone reads this blog, so then no one will mind me saying how much I truly love +MxPx. I don't know why I'm placing a Google + tag in front of +MxPx. I doubt they have a Google +. I have a Google + and I'm active on it. No one else I know is active on G+.

That's okay though. Facebook is a bunch of rubbish. I'm sick and tired of reading about friend's and family's lives. J/k. I do care about my friends and family. I think it's just a protest I'm taking due to the lack of human to human interaction. I am the biggest hippocryte I know though. I gave up Facebook to be active on Inatagram (a Facebook company), G+, Vine, Foursquare, Twitter, and I'll even check my MySpace from time to time.

Whatever though. Today is good so far. My boy is amazing. My wife is amazing. Beer is good and I'm going to watch some local #ABQ baseball later this evening.

Ack! My back!

My back hurts! Well,it doesn't hurt as much as it did when I woke up. That sucker was in pain! I could barely even pick up Luke this morning. Luckily, lines had some supper strong pain killers left over from when she has a root canal.

Days off are nice still. My back is feeling much better, my coffee mug still has coffee in it, and there's a pizza in the oven. There's a lot I want to get done today. I think I'll ask my father in law if I can borrow his lawn mower--our lawn is about to take over Albuquerque. By the way, how awesome has all this rain been? If you're not from ABQ then you don't understand. It doesn't rain much here and when it does rain, we rejoice. At least I do. The other day Lindsey, Luke and I did our own little storm chase and we found ourselves in a flooded street on Candelaria and Richmond. There was nearly a foot of rushing water! This monsoon season has been good so far. I pray it doesn't let up, we need the rain badly.

Well, I think I'm done writing for now. It's time to look through our garage and find scrap lumber. I'm going to attempt to build some shelves.

Who's God? A friend?

It's crazy how friendship affects you. I have lacked communication with people outside of Lindsey and Luke. Lindsey and Luke are the most important humans to me in the world... This last month I was able to have one on one time with a friend.

Life... This is a consistant theme to my blog posts. Friendships come and friendships go. Our character is shaped by the friendships we encounter in our lives. I hope all the time that I'm able to have a positive influence on people I come in contact with.

On another topic...I've really been enjoying this record from Jeff Scheeweis. It's a worship album, but it's not lame. God is real when I listen to these songs. For me I wonder where God is sometimes. I do look at God in a logical way. I believe that science and God can't be separated.

This is a good record for me to meditate on those thoughts...who God is.