Sweet!

It's really nice to have my laptop back! Now if only I could keep it from overheating. I'm sure it's just dusty... Now I don't have to go in that awful computer lab.

Right now I'm sitting at a table in the Moberly Library updating my computer, surfing the internet and observing the fine collection of books on the shelfs. There is a book here called Untamed by Gunther Gebel-Williams. Google it, it's a fantastic book I'm sure.

All is nice here in Moberly, MO. Right now it's snowing tiny flakes. I wish it would snow more though. People here are convinced that it's the arctic circle or something, that winters are amazingly freezing. Maybe I'm missing something but I think it's just as cold in Santa Fe. People told me, "oh it's a different type of cold, it's a wet cold". Hmmm...what's a wet cold? I haven't felt this "wet" cold yet. We'll see though, by the end of this week it's supposed to get down to 4 degrees here. I'll blog then to see if my mind has changed... I have experienced negative temps before, in New Mexico. I was driving once on my way to Wolf Creek and my thermometer read -25 degrees F. This was in Chama, NM. My breaks began to get stiff, I think my break fluid was beginning to freeze it was so cold. I also remember pulling into Angelfire, NM before sunrise and the temperature reading was -17 F. But it's a dry cold, so I don't have to worry. I'm not saying I can handle all weather, I'm just trying to bring awareness to the fact that New Mexico isn't always hot. New Mexico isn't the saguaro cactus with a vulture perched on it as some postcards like to depict. There are no saguaro cacti in New Mexico at all! Yes there is a part of New Mexico that is warmer, southern New Mexico. Las Cruces and Carlsbad, and Roswell. But...ah who cares. I mostly just do this for me anyway. I hope the wet cold sends my back to the west where the climate is warm and rainy...hopefully Portland.

I am really happy to be here dispite frustration about people not knowing about where I'm from. But I can't really blame them. New Mexico isn't really well known for anything important. Maybe the changing of world history in the development of and testing of nuclear weapons. (I'm not proud of that.) Maybe the Albuquerque International Balloon Fiesta... O'Keefe paintings? Meh..

Madness

Ever feel really alone, while being around a bunch of people? That's how I feel right now. I'm in the computer lab inside the Moberly library. I feel really alone right now for some reason. Well, sometimes when I'm at home alone for a long period of time I start thinking about some wild questions that will never be answered for me... I decided to walk to the library after I read a few pages of The Giver. I wanted to read in a not-so-depressing environment. I get serious cabin fever when I'm home alone with nothing to do. I used to get this feeling a lot when I lived by myself on High St. in Albuquerque. If only I was a coffee lover then, I probably would have spent much more time in Flying Star, or Winning, or even Starbucks. In Moberly we have no such coffee shops. The closest cool coffee shops are a forty minute drive away in Columbia. So I decided to walk to the library. I think way to much. I sometimes think that I'm not good enough... good enough to be married to a wonderful person. And other things. I like to try and improve myself by reading things. I think if I fill my brain with interesting things then I will be more interesting. I also ask many, many questions. God questions. Human questions. The cold weather doesn't help. It's dark, and cold here. It's probably the same in Albuquerque, but I can't call Joe and see if he wants to grab a pint with me.

These questions hang...unanswered. I don't even know if they're meant to be answered. I just wonder what's going on in my brain... what are these chemicals that are mixing and making me feel the way I do. Ugh...

So, I had this idea that I would type my blogs on my typewritter and then scan them and post them that way. Now it doesn't sound as interesting as when I thought about it. I'll probably post the two blogs (or journal entries) that I already wrote, but I don't think I'll do it a lot.

I really can't wait to get our computer back, and the internet! People in this lab are always talking really loud, or answering their cell phones, or just making noise. There are signs that say, "NO CELLPHONE use in THIS AREA. Make/Take calls in the lobby". I follow these rules, but everyone else has a hard time obeying. Also, the computers all have a really old version of Internet Explorer. It's seriously annoying.

So, I think I'm going to go back to feeling sorry for myself. First though I'm going to look at some New Mexico news websites. I want to find out what's going on back home. It's weird that I'm the one that's saying "back home". I usually hear other people say it, but I'm never the one to say it...

Moberly, MO...I can't believe it's true.

I've spent the last 25 years of my life in The Land of Enchantment. I love New Mexico, don't get me wrong, but this is awesome. Missouri is so far a really nice place. It's something new. The scenery is different, the people are different, everything is different. I'm not saying New Mexico is bad (although I know of a lot of people who do), I'm just saying I needed this out-of-state living experience. I enjoy learning about this new area. I watch the local news, I read the local news paper, I observe...it's really a blast.

So far the weather here has been chilli, but not as cold as I expected. I expected it to be fridgid. It's still fairly cold... but not as cold as Santa Fe. Santa Fe is expected to drop to a low of 9 degrees farenheit tomorrow night with a 50% chance of hippies. Moberly is hovering around the freezing mark. **yawn**

Moberly is cool, it's refreshing to experience something new. I like not knowing where I am. I like not knowing what to expect from people, it makes life a little bit more fun. Also, I'm picking up a new hobby...typing letters! It's so fun. I inherited a typewriter from my grandpa and I've written two letters so far, one to my parents and one to Joe. I want to write letters to all of my frinds.

I want to write a letter to New Mexico telling her that I miss her and to stay enchanting. Also, not to worry about all of the haters who tell her that she's "entraping".

p.s. Abover are some picures of Columbia, MO (where I work), Moberly, MO (where I live) and some New Mexico shots.