Social Fricken Media

Here I am again, writing on this small phone screen. I won't write too much. I'm tired and I need rest for tomorrow. I'm just bothered right now by my thoughts. I've seriously been thinking about Christianity. I'm a Christian, but I'm questioning a lot about how Christians think.

I read this article from Answers in Genesis. I'm blown away. I'm not a smart person, but I have common sense. I'm sorry, but these people make Christians look like closed minded fools. I believe what the Bible says, but I have some questions. I believe that any idea should stand up to questioning, including the Bible.

So, back to common sense. I believe that God loves and created me, and I feel that he's given us a brain to think through things. Science and discovery are wonderful things. God's made us curious. We are want to know more about our surroundings. And we've made a ton of discoveries as a human race.

One thing we've done is calculate how fast light travels. We know how far light will travel in one year. These people at Answers in Genesis are Young Earth Creationists. They believe the Earth is 6,000 years old...seriously. Elementary science teaches us that the closest galaxies to Earth are MILLIONS of light years away.

Man! The vastness of the Universe doesn't disprove God. The Universe can be billions and of years old. I mean, it is billions of years old. God is still God. He's outside of time. We've been made in his image. Curious. Discover. Search. Question your faith! If it's true, it'll withstand your most brutal tests.

Eye Boogers and Other Stuff

I've had these dang eye boogers in my left eye all day. I have no idea what causes them, but it's freaking annoying. I've washed my face. Examined my eye ball in the mirror and removed all the eye boogers I could find. They keep coming back... all day. So, there's that.

I talk a lot about my concerns in this blog. Life's brought me to a turning point again. I was convinced for a while that I wanted to be a teacher. I thought I wanted to teach high school science, or high school history. My degree is economics. Social studies would be my subject if I decided to go that route. I've encountered some road blocks, however. Road blocks shouldn't stop my desires.

Anyway, I've picked my path. I'm a late bloomer, I know. I'm 31 and I'm considering what career path to take. Pathetic. It's been frustrating for me. It's been really hard for me to even get an interview since I graduated in 2009. In college I kinda fished around for something to study. It took me a while. I found it though. Economics fascinated me, I enjoyed studying economics. I read about career paths and jobs available. Econ majors shouldn't have a terrible time finding a job. I sure have! I'm doing something wrong.

So, I've been discouraged. Teaching seemed like something I could sink my teeth into. Something I could be sure of. I've just been tired of not having an identity. A person's career choice is a big part of their identity. I'm a tech support agent in a call center. Troubleshooting internet connections, smart phones and other telecommunications. I guess if I searched I could find how my degree prepared me for this job... It's not what I pictured, and I don't feel like it's a career. There are some career paths I could take within the company... Anyway, I think I'll stop talking about this. It's just something on my mind. The decision I've made is that I'm going to continue my MBA. I've started it. My employer is paying for the classes. I've got great grades, and I don't like to start things and not finish them. I'll be a master of something soon. Think I'll press on.

Other changes I'm thinking about involve the church we currently attend. We're thinking about looking for another church. There's nothing really wrong with the church we go to. Crestview Baptist Church is small church in the International District (aka the "war zone") in Albuquerque. The church has been in existence since the 1940s. It's a good church. There are good people who attend the church. Lindsey and I were talking about needing more. We would love to have some friends who we could relate to.

So these are the things on my mind right now.

I'm also thinking about the garden we planted. I don't know if it's too late in the season, but we planted. Here's a photo of what we've got.

It's just some watermelon, zucchini and squash. All high sun exposure plants. I think they should do alright in this tiny plot. The other little plot I planted is doing really well. I planted peas, tomatoes, carrots and some other type of herb I can't remember right now. My challenge with that plot is trying to determine what's a weed and what's a vegetable. Now that the plants are maturing it's getting a little easier.

So, my career, my church, my garden...these are all things on my mind right now. Oh yeah, and the eye boogers. I hope these dang eye boogers go away tomorrow. I think after I wright this blog post I'll probably look up what causes them.

Just Because

I just killed a black widow. Little bitch had it coming. I hate those dang spiders. I felt a little sick when I saw it.

Whatever. My work week's over. I'm glad. Weeks bring too much. I'm tired of thinking about it. Now I'm home. I'm typing words on my dang Chromebook. Listening to Augustana. Love this album.

We just finished that movie Mr. Nobody with Jared Leto. It was one of those thinking movies. Choices verses destiny and time and junk. I thought it was interesting. I especially liked when they went into artificial hibernation and traveled to Mars. That was neat.

Now I've got some days off work to enjoy.

What'll I do? Well, I've been thinking about socialism. Yeah. Politics. I hate them. I should care more, but I just see the crazies posting crazy things on Facebook. I've been back on Facebook for the past few months. I'm kinda regretting getting back on. I'm attracted to it like moth to flame. I overpost and scroll though people's posts wasting time. I'm not even going waste time thinking about it now.

What else...

Not a lot. I'm just writing because. Just because.

Seek Knowledge!

One of the biggest lies I tell myself is that Christianity is for the dumb. Blind faith idiots who don't care to observe the world around them and accept every bit of crap that's fed to them. Sure, I think there are a lot of Christians who behave this way, especially Christians in the United States. It's our culture to be lazy... We've made religion a sport. Our team is winning and so forth. Whatever.

This isn't what Christianity is about. I just read this portion of 2 Peter and I loved it! I'll share now.

"5 For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue,[e] and virtue with knowledge, 6 and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, 7 and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love."
2 Peter 1:5-7 ESV


So, Christians are called out to supplement their virtue with knowledge. So you can strive to have a high moral character, but be knowledgeable.


I can ponder these two verses for a while... I don't think that God wants us to be dumb Christians just spouting out what some idiot politician said, or some mega-church pastor who wants to get his book on the New York Times best selling list. We're to think! If you believe that God in all his perfect knowledge and craftsmanship designed our incredibly complex brain, then use it!


Climate change is real. Science has proved it. The universe is actually billions of years old. Science has proved it. I think even evolution should be given a fair shake. Do these theories conflict with who God is? I don't think so. God's plan is perfect. Who are you, human, to tell God how the Universe should come about? 

Explore

I can start to smell the smoke from the Skunk Fire. At least I think it's from the Skunk Fire. That's what this story says from the Albuquerque Journal. I see a few clouds. I hope the rain we're expecting actually happens.

Yeah, anyway. It's a lazy day. Lindsey's at work and I'm enjoying being outside on my Chromebook, hanging out with Luke. We're listening to Coldplay's newest... well it's their newest as far as I'm concerned. Google Play All Access hasn't released the newest yet. I'm excited to hear it.

I thought I had a lot more to say today. I guess I got it all out last night in the blog I wrote before this one. I'm probably just killing time. I feel especially curious today. Curious about the world around me. I guess my son is rubbing off on me. A two-year-old's curiosity is unmatched. He's a continual student. Constantly exploring. He's learning what animals say and how water feels as it passes thorough his fingers. He's learning about how an object can be on top of, or underneath, or inside another object. He's learning how to express his thoughts in language (and song). He's learning how to show love to others.

He's inspiring me to want to learn more. Adults give up. At some point I gave up on learning. We have all this information available to us. We have the entire world! Even the Universe. And we waste it! It's pretty sad. I want so bad to explore Earth. I want to visit all sorts of different places. I want to experience weather on other continents.

Southbound Highway

Writing on a mobile device is fun! Well, I was being sarcastic just then. I'd much rather type on an actual keyboard. I'm a lazy american, so I won't get up. Plus, I've got things on my mind now. Pretty cool that I have a mobile device though. Ten years ago I couldn't imagine carrying the internet in my pocket. And yet I do worthless things like play Royal Revolt 2...

Story of my life so far. I have the world at my fingertips and I waste it. I'm not feeling sorry for myself. Just making an observation. I've made some mistakes. I just hope I've learned from those mistakes and change my behavior. I think I'm ready to be a "go getter". Ha ha! " Think. My life has been uncertain up to this point. I've never had a set plan. Because of my attitude in life I don't have a career. I'm a tech support agent in a call center... People I talk to are frustrated with technology. They unload that frustration on me. I didn't go to school for this. I thought I deserved better. I think that's where I went wrong. I thought I deserved something and I didn't work for it.

So here I am. A 30 year old with no career. It sucks. I'm changing things. I have a plan now. I'm going to teach. I've always wanted to teach. I've got to go back to school for a bit. It'll be worth it.

I'm keeling my chin up. It's hard sometimes. I feel like I'm being thrashed down a rapid mountain river, gasping for air sometimes. My family is my everything now. I look for strength in God.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only person who's crying out. Americans are so secretive. Don't talk about your religion. Don't express your worries. Keep your politics to yourself. We need to express ourselves! We need company to talk to. Talk about our worries. That's one of the worst things about my job; I have people sitting all around me but I hardly get to spend five minutes talking to any of them. It's all about productivity...guess that's the point. I just miss friendship. I don't have anyone I can call and just hang out with. Seems like the friends I have are drifting away. I try to reach out... I feel like a huge nerd. Not the "cool" nerd. I feel like the nerd that no one wants to sit by in the lunch room. It doesn't feel nice.

So where's my God? Does He bring me rest? Yes. He brings me peace. I'm done wrestling with my faith. I don't care what people think of me. I'm not lukewarm. I've got life in front of me. I'll meet new friends. I'll meet friends who have time for me. Friends who I can confide in. I'm not forgetting about two of my best friends either. One is laying right next to me...she's super hot too. The other's laying in the next room probably dreaming about animals, airplanes, and choo choos. So, I'm blessed.

Burned Out

Burned out. I'm continually checking my inbox for new opportunity. I'm checking my phone settings for an os update. I'm tired of the same old, same old. My weekends I spend talking to frustrated end users. I'm expected to have the patience of a saint. I need a fresh morning. I need to feel like I'm important for some cause.