Here I Am

Here I am. At home. On a Sunday. Doing what Americans do. I kinda hate my attitude lately. I'm sick and tired of being part of America. It's nothing against Americans. I'm American. I just don't like how things happen here. I feel like things are backwards. We're focused on the wrong types of things. Life is about surviving, it always has been. Humans, and all animals do their best to survive... So, I guess I don't blame us for just doing our best to survive. What's life about, though? It's not about technology, or vacations, or the next high. That's what we chase in America, though. It's apparent watching this AFC Championship game. Commercials sell us what we want. That Apple commercial really freaked me out. 

Here's the commercial. I think Apple is telling me that there is all this excitement out there. Being human is experiencing all these different things, and an iPad will enhance that experience. I love to document my experiences, but I think that sometimes it's good not to document, too. It takes away from the experience when all I'm doing is looking at a 4 inch screen... I want to be in the moment. 

This brings me back to surviving. I'm surviving. I eat (too much). I'm living. I wouldn't say I'm living to the fullest though. I think a lot of Americans can relate to me. I want more. Albuquerque is a great place, but I want to see more. I want to breathe the air in different places. I want to see the sun set over the ocean. I'm tied down to my American life. I would give up the internet in a second. 

I'm not ungrateful for what I have. I have everything I need. I have my health. I have a job. I love my wife and I love my son. Things need to change here though. I'm not sure they will. I can see the future. Our obsession with technology is only going to get worse. Our time with other humans is going to decrease and the separation of opinions and ideas are only going to widen. Christians hate gay people. Gay people hate Duck Dynasty. Some women want the right to choose to abort a pregnancy. Some women believe it to be murder. I'm generalizing. And I'm sure not all Christians hate gay people and I'm sure all gay people don't hate Duck Dynasty. But it appears that our country is so divided. 

Well, at least we can all agree that we need more stuff. We need more data. We need more mega pixels. We need more beer. We need more Vegas, more Los Angeles. We need more porn. More meaningless sex. We're not nice to each other. We get in our powerful cars and speed down the road texting our status update. Everyone needs to know what we're doing. I wish we loved more. 

We claim to follow Jesus. We claim to be a "Christian Nation". That makes me laugh uncomfortably. Christian Nation? When I read about Jesus, then I read the news I would say we're the anti-christ nation. Bickering on Facebook. 

I'm just complaining. I need to listen to some music. I need time with my wife. I need time with my friends. Complaining won't get me anywhere.